I am soooo lethargic. I feel weak, my head is killing me and my legs are heavy.. I nearly fell asleep in class. And I wasn't the student.

I guess me travelling every two weeks to my hubby's place and us literally living out of the suitcase is beginning to show its effect on me. I'm embarrassed to admit it, but I guess I'm not that strong (physically). I can't even bear this small adventure.. aparaa Viv??

It gets more difficult when friends and relatives ask 'How long will this be?'. Truth is, we don't know. We each have our careers (not that mine is so high-flying, but it pays the bills) and most importantly, we love what we do. Forget my occasional rants on those dysfunctional kids, I love this job! Just as he loves his planes and the mechanics of physics (zzzz.. zzz..). It'd be unfair to ask either of us to change jobs (or places), especially when we just started working -he started work last two Augusts while I just joined the workforce ten months ago. It won't look good on our CVs either.. plus, working outside the Klang Valley? Sorry sweetie, but here's the place to go. Hehe.

I'll be more than happy to sacrifice and be with him but that will take time, when our financial standing is stronger. At the moment, we need to make ends meet and everything is still so shaky. When I start to feel like this (like what? Like this lah, complaining why the hell are we living this way?) I begin to cajole my senses by thinking to myself:

- Do you know how many young couples fight over money? Or the lack of it? This way, I get to buy what I want (without merengek-ing at my hubby) and I'm also able to help out a little, if ever, my dear husband needs it
- Long-distance relationships do have their plusses. For one thing, we argue less and even if we do, we'd wanna make the best out of our weekly meetings for other stuffs (ehem) so arguing? What argument??
- I don't have to stay with my mother-in-law. Haha. She ain't bad, but you can never get too comfortable with your in-laws, can you girls?
- Think of the incoming flows of income.. I do want my own home, right?

Admittedly, there are the cons of such way of living:
- The phone bill is massive. But we've managed to overcome that (a bit) through some saving-cum-family call plans
- It's tiring, but whenever I start to feel all whacked, I do this 'lil sense-cajoling again.
- I miss my husband! Period.

I'm happy with the way things turn out. It's just that our life is not the same as other newly-married couples. I do get moved at times when I see my friends going home after work to their husbands. They get to cook dinner for their significant others (What? Me talking about cooking??).. get to watch tv or just snuggle in front of the telly together.. But life could be worse. Think of all those couples in real trouble. We are so much luckier than them. I do miss him greatly, but this is part of our life right now. We knew it would be like this. We chose this.

So please, dear body.. be strong, will ya?