hehehe.. sorry peeps for not updating in quite a while. been on cloud 9 (both metaphorically & literally speaking!) these past few days & i've just landed back on earth *big grin*.. allow me to recap the happenings of my not-so-ordinary days.

thursday - after heaving a huge sigh of relief for finally having a job, the first person i sms-ed (what? u cheapo. no ler, i had no credit to call) was my bf. he called 2 secs later, showering me with congrats, i know u could do it, i'm so happy for u etc. i also texted my bestfriends, NY and LI to which they replied more or less the same nice things. not forgetting my dad & mom. and sista. later that day, i met NY & crashed at her place.

friday - watched juon2 at klcc with LI after lunch. the first 3/4 part of the movie was pretty spooky, but just as i thought i had everything figured out, the movie just had to get confusing & thus, induced me into my 'huh?' mode. but it was ok overall. got me jumpy everytime i hear a loud thud against my walls at night.

saturday - bf decided to surprise me & came to visit late in the afternoon.

sunday - bf wanted to celebrate my new job by taking me to genting (though not exactly in the clouds, it's still way up there). yeay! haven't been there since i was 4, so i was v happy. we rode all the rides, including that infamous 'solero shot'. whoa.. that's officially the scariest ride i've ever ridden! i could've fainted if i wasn't too busy screaming. for those who've never been to genting theme park, solero shot is where all 12 of us would be seat-belted around this thick square-ish pole, facing outwards, overlooking the entire theme park. then we'll be brought up to about 200 feet (not sure on the accuracy of it, but it was really high), stop for a few seconds & later be dropped down. that's zero gravity people. if ever u wanna good cardio exercise, take the solero shot. silap haribulan gol terus. haha. my other fave ride was the 'corkscrew'. hehe, like the real thing, this rollercoaster would actually twist upside down & inside out, just like those loops of a screw. i absolutely hated the water-cycling ride cos only my side was working so i had to cycle in the water for both of us. that's pretty darn heavy, especially with my current fitness level i.e not fit. my feet ached a lil afterwards. then we went bowling. that's where tragedy strikes.
~ bf had quite a 'longkang' start cos he hasn't been bowling for quite a while. so after he got his first strike, me being the supportive gf, clapped away & cheered for my man, only to realise a bit too late that there was a stair-like step behind me.. as i turned, i mis-stepped, toppled butt first & ended up sprawled on my belly, in front of all those other people in the next lanes! i didn't know which hurt more, my rib or my pride. i just laughed when bf came to my rescue, carefully aware that it'd be cooler to shrug it off (although painfully) rather than bawl my eyes out.
~ a few minutes later during my turn to bowl, i was so eager to do a strike myself that i swinged a lil too hard that my ball dropped & rolled backwards. oh, the shame. my bf was so in shock (takut sebenarnye that the ball would hit him) that he froze for 5 seconds before laughing his head off. i swear the whole bowling alley could hear him. but it was just so hilarious that i laughed too. he even quipped, 'i thought this thing only happens in the movies'. kureng punye bf. hmph.

i had my interview an hour ago & am glad to report that i did it!! got the job & will commence duty early april. alhamdulillah. it was so quick, like 5 minutes. they didn't even ask me any killer questions.. just 'what's your area of specialisation?' hehe.. goreng, baby. jangan tak goreng.

i'd like to take this opportunity to thank all my wonderful blogger pals for their wishes, it certainly brought me luck u guys! thanks aida, shsuya, azell, joliekins, ellene, loser, colourful socks.. wow, kalah dalam oscars nih. haha.. i'm just so relieved that it's over. no matter how good or experienced u are, u can never escape the formality (and stomach churning feel) of interviews.. and that is just soooo nerve-wrecking! the room was so cold just now, i could feel myself shrinking. added to that effect was the sound of the wall clock above us, going 'bong.. bong.. bongggg' everytime the clock strucks the hour. sejibik in horror film i tell u. it didn't help that i knew there'd be a roomful of people in there (true, there were 8-9 interviewers). suffice to say, the suspense was just overwhelming.

okie dokes.. i'm off home now. wanna rest & freshen up before meeting my bestfriend NY after work. ladies & gents, i am now (officially) a lecturer! hehe.. don't know whether that's good news or bad for the students *winks*

i'm back and am soooooo tired.. the reason why i'm here blogging is to kill time while waiting for my hourly bus to arrive. did i mention that i'm sleepy too? yess.. very, very sleepy. think i'll sleep for a minute on this leyboard. ok, that's a typo. keyboards. without the 's'.

ooh rats. ms. mariah's finally coming here & i can't go. i was, eh, still am a huge fan lah.. just that her songs aren't as power as before. well, at least to me.. though i could never reach any of her pitches, MC's songs are always in my list of favourites to warble in the shower. if u wanna see a diva, she's definitely it. but who could blame her -she started from absolutely nothing, got an amazing voice, won best new artiste, wrote all her songs & (used-to-be)married to sony's big guy. if a girl's any good at strategy, it's definitely her. oh well, at least i can count on joliekins to snap some cool pics (kan? kan??) hehehe..

so what will i be doing this weekend till i have to miss mariah? i have to work. boring as hell. i'm off to PD with a few other RAs, along with our research heads to complete the report writing. why PD? don't ask.. like i'll have the time to cuci mata (then again, PD? jeez, the water's not ever clear!). there's a big chance that i'll be stuck in the apartment, typing away & perhaps looking more like a granny as the weekend's over. no..

apart from my less than satisfactory (temporary) job & measly pay, the good news is that i'll be having my job interview next week. arghhh!!! i'm dead nervous! never been this nervous since, since my bf's parents came to visit. hehe, which was only a few weeks ago. wish me luck guys.. really need to prep up on that one.

one of my bf's ex (nahh, not the bitter penyu but the psycho no.2) forwarded him an email yesterday. she's been doing this (emailing him fwds and her own mails) ever since he got back, but none ever reaches him cos he had her address blocked. unrelenting as she is, the girl evidently took the time (read: trouble) to create a new account, so this one came through. he called me during lunch & told me about it. we laughed after he insisted on reading the first para. he wanted to read 'em all but i couldn't stand cringing so much over the phone, so i requested that he forward it to me instead. 

i'm not bothered or anything. i mean, it's just a forward. but it gets pretty annoying when this ghost just won't budge. she's done weird things before to get his attention, like, told him she's getting engaged.. later, married.. then, has a child.. which in the end my bf found out she's not only without a child, but never gotten married in the first place.. and just weeks before he returned to mesia, she mengadu that she doesn't love her fiancé anymore (bertunang la pulak dah) & is convinced that she kena buat. hello?

nway, that's just a lil intro of this psycho character. i could be a total bitch & bla bla some more, but neah, don't wanna. instead, i've decided to share her forward with all u, fave blogger pals o’mine. let us all cringe (or sob?) together, shall we?

Subject: Jika kamu..

Renungkan. Hayati dan fahami..

Jika kamu memancing ikan.. setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail, hendaklah kamu mengambil terus ikan itu. janganlah sesekali kamu lepaskan ia semula ke dalamair begitu sahaja.. kerana ia akan sakit oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akan menderita selagi ia masih hidup..

Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi banyak pengharapan kepada seseorang.. setelah ia mula menyayangimu hendaklah kamu menjaga
hatinya.. janganlah sesekali kamu terus meninggalkannya begitu
sahaja kerana dia akan terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu dan
mungkin tidak dapat melupakan segalanya selagi dia mengingatimu..

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada, jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh.. cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu.. Apabila sekali ia retak.. tentu sukar untuk kamu menampalnya semula.. akhirnya ia dibuang sedangkan jika kamu cuba membaikinya mungkin ia masih boleh digunakan lagi..

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang terimalah
seadanya.. Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa.. anggaplah dia manusia biasa.
Apabila sekali dia melakukan kesilapan bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya.. akhirnya kamu kecewa meninggalkannya.
Sedangkan jika kamu memaafkannya boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan berterusan hingga ke akhirnya..

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi.. yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu. Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat. Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba mencari makanan yang lain.. Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan.
Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya.

Kamu akan menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insane yang kamu pasti membawa kebaikan kepada dirimu. Menyayangimu. Mengasihimu. Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba membandingkannya dengan
yang lain. Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan. Kelak, kamu akan kehilangannya apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain
Kamu juga yang akan menyesal..

 

like, what the heck was that??

 

i know, forwards are nothing. it doesn't mean anything.

or does it? don't u agree that forwards are the kinda impersonal thang to give someone u want to get in touch with? it can come across as, i wanna email u, but don't wanna appear like i'm emailing u.. and isn't it spooky that one choses to give it to an ex? woooo...

*twilight zone background music*

*yawn, stretch*.. my feet are tired for climbing those flight of stairs a gazillion times .. my bum hurts for sitting too long (didn't think this was possible) & my eyes are looking more crossed than ever for staring at those survey forms! that, ladies & gents, just about sums up my day. heh.

so how'd ur weekend go? me? well, despite having one of the sweetest bfs around, i had a weekend just like any other. eh, come to think of it, it's a lot plainer than usual cos normally, we'd catch a movie at least. last weekend however, there weren't even trips to 1utama. no chocolates, let alone flowers (heck, i knew this one's coming).. no dinner. though we did go to the pasar malam in front of my house. oh yeah, we watched man. utd vs man city later. as the furnitures in my living room were recently shifted about, there wasn't any long sofa facing the telly directly. so no cuddling either. as i sat crossed leg on one sofa, he laid sprawled on the other. we held hands though, in which mine was occasionally clasped real tight, not with passion but with excitement every time man. u scores. uhuh.. my man totally brings romanticism to a new level. hehehe. even with all that, i'm still very much smittened (amidst my subtle whines & eye-rolling of course). lucky sod.

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on a different note, i had the chance of dropping by some of my fave blogs this morning prior to my eye-crossing & bum-tormenting vocation. one that caught my attention was ellene's. her gloom got me thinking to myself half the day (when i wasn't actually doing work or busy rubbing my sore behind). why do partners (obviously, not of a law firm) sometime hang to momentos of the past although they're in a new relationship? what say u? how'd u react (i'm not asking how u'd FEEL cos it's bloody obvious isn't it -we'd inevitably feel angry, sad, hurt or surprised at least) if one day, while cleaning up ur bf's drawers (the act, whether on purpose or not is not the issue), u spot some of his pics with an ex-girlfriend? guys, how'd u react if ur girl still keeps some of the jiwang-till-u-gag love letters her ex used to give her?

i've experienced this a couple of times. one was with X. i was at his house doing god-knows what when i spotted a card & an ear stud he received from his ex. the things written inside were enough to set me off laughing cos they were of horrid grammar (not that mine's particularly wow.. but still, he kept that). i didn't ask him anything cos it was no biggie. second was with my current sweetie. i was looking for a piece of paper that he said was kept in this drawer when i accidentally (honest, it was an accident) spotted his old filofax. ok, admittedly i should've just shove it back in there & went ahead with my initial search. but c'mon, wouldn't u be curious? the cat in me was rearing it's ugly head so much that i couldn't resist. besides, i know myself well enough to know that there's nothing of the past that would bother me. unless they're graphic, haha.. now that's a different story. nway, his old organiser was filled with some jottings bla bla.. then a piece stood out. a note from his ex wishing him luck or something. like the last time, i didn't confront him cos it really is no big deal.

frankly, these things don't really bug me cos i know the guy's with me now.. although, it wouldn't hurt if he doesn't keep any historic artifacts. that would certainly earn him more brownie points. i personally don't have any remainings from my exes. except their presents.. hehe, loathe the guy but keep the diamonds what. but no love letters, no mushy poems or soppy cards whatsoever in my library. just not my style. i'm not sure i like the idea of past ghosts haunting me in my present, happy relationship. what more if the ghost is of his past.

meaningful, don't u think?

The Trouble With Love Is - Kelly Clarkson

been pretty busy the last couple of days. it's bad enough i'm doing double the workload cos one of the research officers went away for his kpli appointment, now my head (ketua, not my head) who has a heart bigger than Carebear wishes to assist her colleague on that person's project! we had to review all the materials from scratch with the deadline being in 2 weeks.. and guess who had to do the questionnaire AND master coding? yeay.

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anyway, V-day's around the corner. so what? big deal? yeah.. i know most of u are probably rolling ur eyes this very minute, demanding 'can't i pleease read a blog without the mere mention of that boring VD word for once??'. can't blame u guys. i am totally with aida in that we 'hate all those clever marketing people who lure us poor consumers into buying that big hoopla called Valentine's Day'. the day's over-rated really. minus the date & the fact that it falls on a saturday (how convenient), it's just like any other day.

then why, for the life of me, am i looking forward to it? argh!! nooo... i'm wailing cos i'm becoming a big, tall jelly, joining the ranks of those giddy girls who giggle at anything remotely romantic. but please, spare me the 'cheh, aparaa..' yah. i have my reasons as to WHY Valentine's Day has a spot in me. valid or not, they're justified by my standards. hehe. ok, so let's hear 'em..

1. my bf & i rarely meet. the usual get-together would be every 2-3 weeks and when he does come over, we usually have other social obligations to attend to (friends gatherings, member kahwin etc).. so as u all may have guessed, i miss him.

2. my ex (huh? did u read correctly? yeah, u did. just go on) spoilt me rotten. he was the kind of guy who'd shower u with gifts (we celebrated our 'anniversary' every month. now that's cheesy!), bring u flowers (a dozen, no less), phone u daily, call u 'princess', pay for everything, demand u to sit back & relax while he gushes over the food/drinks/chair/movie tix etc, open the door for u (yess, he does that), buy anything that u so much as go 'hey, that's nice' to... get my drift? being 20 & somewhat in love, i thought all that constitute what love is. now that i'm grown up (or at least parts of me), i realised that those were not the qualities that i needed in a guy. perhaps they were what i wanted, but certainly not needed. i learnt that gifts & presents aren't promises, kisses aren't contracts and most of all, blind loyalty & being a gentleman don't always count to something. i caught that very same guy cheating on me on V-day. no, not in bed with another chic or anything like it but having a romantic, candle-lit dinner at a fancy restaurant. somehow, the effect was pretty devastating.

er, where am i heading with this? ok for one thing, since i'm so used to being pampered, i kinda forgot on how to be my old 'macho' self who doesn't give a damn bout V-day. but seriously people, once u get that dose of attention, u get addicted. it's toxic. i'm not saying that i lost my head, or heart for that matter, cos i'm absolutely fine in all aspects (no psychotic tendencies). in fact, i'm so happy that my current bf is not at all like the previous joe. my guy's the kind who doesn't believe in giving a girl flowers often or take her to fancy dinners on occasions (it's superficial, he said. but i think it's becos he's plain lazy, hehe). simply said, he's the exact opposite where PDAs are concerned. but despite that, certain things remain -he's attentive, he listens (although not necessarily giving me what a girl needs to hear) & he makes time to talk to me everyday (being in a LDR, that's mighty important).

and the other thing is, i'd like not to be reminded by my friends that i was once chucked on V-day. if i act all grumpy or do that 'klcc face', they'd be sure to think that Ex still hurts me. where in fact, he doesn't. he cease to have any impact whatsoever on me. i have moved on & love my new relationship to bits. as a sign of me moving on, i'd like to rejoice not only V-day but every other day that i am a loving person. unfortunately, since the former has a greater effect compared to its 364 counterparts, guess that's why V-day is like, given 'extra' treatment.

arghhh!!!!

how was my day? good & crappy. it was pretty good in the morning but it went downhill after lunch and that previous outburst was made bcos i've just babbled a long entry but it went kaput. gone. so now i have to type all over again. please, excuse me.. ARRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!

the good -i'm extremely happy & relieved as my results are finally endorsed. yeay!! so that settles my long-winded dissertation process.

the crap -i'm a 'lil annoyed cos i have yet to receive my scholar money to pay for my fees. wanna know what happen? letsee, how to put it as painlessly as i can.. ok, jpa sent me a cheque through my uni (which is unfortunately made jointly to another student. so basically one cheque but two names ler). that was may last year. so here i was wondering where the heck my money has gone to.. i called 'em plenty of times, but u know how red tapes get in the way. when i finally reached the right person, she said 'go check with ur uni'. so i did. in turn, the finance dept told me to wait for them to call me back cos they needed time to dig up the old documents. that was almost two weeks ago, so when they didn't call (surprised?), i did so this afternoon. apparently, there's this BIG problem so he has to check with my sponsor, today (huh, baru nak call today??).. why do i have this sinking feeling that i'll be doing the 'klcc face'^*in the next few days??

so to put my misery at rest, i checked out william hung's (remember my post on feb 5?) audition for american idol 3, hehehe.. that guy definitely cheered me up. for those who've never seen american idol, here's one audition u should never miss! oly, this is especially for u *grin*. watch him here