my bf woke me with an unpleasant phone call this morning. apparently his ex called him at quarter past midnight this morning to vent out for over an hour & to, so-called, salvage her pride. what? ok, i think a 'lil intro of the situation would certainly help. i've been with my bf for 4 months now, but we've known each other for over a year before that. this ex was his gf waay back when they were in uni together in london. they broke up like, three yrs ago. so suffice to say, they are soo history. nway, to put more twist in our story (or added drama in our lurve lives, hehe), this ex is one of my bestfriend's scholar mate & hence, colleague at the same office now. there shouldn't be any problems really cos it's not like i came between them or anything (in fact, my bf had another gf after her).. but she just had to make everything so complicated by being so weird!

i mentioned about a certain bitter penyu in one of my earlier entries (dec 16th i think). this is the girl. absurd as it may sound, she's paranoid that my bestfriend & i have nothing better to do than talk about her behind her back- she's convinced that we feel sorry for her, conjured up notions that i'm feeling insecure & badmouthed my bestfriend as being busybody about her life.. granted, my bestfriend made a mistake when she accidentally dialled bitter's extension & in an effort to cover (why need to cover in the first place? cos bitter's been distancing herself & refusing to hangout with the other scholars lately ), asked her "how're things.. btw, i heard u know that ur ex is going out with my bestfriend now". bitter's so adamant that my friend called her up on purpose to gloat (huh? what tha hell for??).. even as i write, she still believes that & despite others telling her it was a mistake (including my bf), she won't believe and maintains "huh, manada accidental? i know she sengaja je call me. why she so sibuk about my life? i don't care about my ex going out with her friend ok, so just stop talking about me & leave me alone!" <-- ok, this one may not be her exact words but they are remnants of what i heard from my bestfriend, who in turn, heard it from another colleague.

seriously, apa masalah pompuan ni? she insists that she's over him & don't give a damn as to who he dates etc.. then why-lah acting so over? ni call him malam2 buta (even i don't do that) to supposedly 'salvage her pride' cos she thinks he sees her in a bad light. she's annoyed that he knows of her 'friction' with my bestfriend. hello? ni sapa yang caused the friction? there wouldn't be any damn friction to begin with if she didn't act so wired up kan? honestly, would u care about what ur ex thinks? unless there are unsettled issues, i doubt anyone would give a hoot. i certainly don't.. lantak-lah my ex is going out with a model ke, nak kawin ke.. why should i care on his thoughts of me?

i really think she's mental.. bitter & mean as well. i'm not being judgmental and am not simply saying this based on how she's acting the past few months (yeah, all this so-called friction's been happening for quite a while). i knew her before this since i'm aware of all of my NY's pals from uni & work- we used to hangout, watch theatre & plays, have dinners. i thought we were friends. obviously she doesn't think so. adaka dia cakap to my bestfriend (during their 'accidental' phone call) "alah.. they both tu baru je. i give them 6 months" and "mamat tu memang lah ignore me now cos tengah happy. tunggulah when got problems kang, sure he'll call me. now i'm just waiting for the time he contacts me back". what?! she has that much confidence huh. i'm quite annoyed at hearing that, but i know she purposely wanted me to know it (if not, why tell my bestfriend). but no sir-ree, i won't let myself be bothered by it. i think she feels better kot if she hurts me. weird witch.

what, was wawa thinking?? ok, i know i didn't do my fair share as her temporary manager (i sorta ditched the idea & never gave a hoot during the rehearsals cos i was busy with my own thing) but jeans & pagoda tees are so out of her theme! time initial planning beriya sakan, i thought it'd be nice or at least, meriah la sikit for the song. good grief. i cringed big time the minute i saw her dancers prance around in their not-so-flattering moves.. and they were buncit! erk!! nasib baik her vocal performance maintain - i suppose she was wise enough not to glance ar her dancers. if not, sure hilang concentration. my bf gelak gile & teased me "where on earth did ur friend find those dancing dudes?".. "u better sack her manager, dear".. aargh!! nasib baik menang.

PET'S IN TOWN on a lighter note, my old email friend Pet is in town. i think he's on his semester break now. it'll be a while before he returns to nz. Pet & i have this history gak, hehe.. it's quite funny actually. when we were in college doing our a-levels, i had a crush on his friend, Piggy. i think i was being held captive by a poltergeist or something cos till now i fail to see what the heck was i thinking. nway, after enduring several horrendous moments of approaching the Piggy (eeu.. see? i was a mad woman) & being played yo-yo by him (he macam nak reciprocate but kept cool. alah, u know the drill of guys yang perasan player ni lah kan), i swore him off. time tu i gile bitter & kinda swore off his gang as well - there were 5 guys in his gang, konon the cool dudes of our batch lah. ntah camne a few months after a-levels, i got to know Pet- yeah, he had to be one of Piggy's groupies- in cyberspace (er, don't ask what i was doing there). it was quite awkward at first, knowing that he knew what happened between Piggy& me, but he was cool nonetheless. we soon became good email buddies, bouncing emails back & forth ever so frequently & continued to email each other even after he flew to nz to further his studies.. and we still do, keeping each other up-to-date with our lives till now. he was also one of my ahli panel who gave advise & kept my head sane during my courtship-cum-challenging period with my current bf. hehe. he's really a nice guy.. and did i mention that he's quite rich & cute as well? hehe.. so, single ladies out there, wanna get to know this friend o' mine? as i was saying, he's in town & i just received an email from him, complete with hp number, for us to hangout if ever i go to klcc.

i just dropped my bf off the commuter station after being with him for, letsee, less than 24 hours! he's going to s.alam to take the car from his bro, then drive back to mlk. sigh.. why laa time flies so fast whenever he comes to visit? this is one of the darn downsides of having a partner in another state. we don't get to see each other as much & as easily as other couples. it certainly takes a lotta hard work to maintain the relationship- we email & talk to each other daily to know the other's whereabouts and keep the spark going.. and believe me, trust is the name of the game. he's probably coming over again on new year's eve. we're planning to have a lil gathering of friends at my bestfriend's place, maybe have some bbq chicken & celebrate new year in mediocre style. what can i say.. we're gettin' old (actually not THAT old, just not into noises & crowded places like the good old days). prefer to sit back, chill & enjoy the company of loved ones instead of hoo-haa-ing.

so last night we saw lotr. it was great (biasalah).. aragorn is indeed portrayed as manly & brave in the movie (do i hear women sighing at the mere mention of his name?) but i'm more into cuties, such as legolas. haha. my bf pinched me & whispered 'your bf' everytime legolas appeard on screen. of course, the movie was damn long, we finished at 2am. mata-mata suma drowsy, we all looked like the dead stepping out of the cinema.

gosh.. i'm sooo lazy! haven't been blogging in days. it's not that i haven't been online, i have- but i find it enjoyable reading other people's blogs rather than doodling my own, hehe.. nway, today's friday which means tomorrow is saturday (er, what tha hell am i doing?) and that ultimately means i'm watchin' lotr tmrw night! yeay!! i know, i know.. other people have watched it ages ago but due to the fact that i'm very much besotted to my guy, i've decided to wait & watch with him (even if that means turning down free tix that my friends offered!). the things i do for him.. now, he better treats me nice.

so, what did i do for x'mas? nothing. my old classmate from college got married, so went to her wedding yesterday. she looked absolutely gorgeous! the pair wore ice blue & she even had nurul (siti's makeup artiste) doing her makeup & all. she told us earlier that she wanted to 'take his breath away'.. but honestly, she memang lawa gile pun. so how could he be any shorter of breath? during the nikah (i couldn't attend that) my bestfriend said she faired 10/10 at taking her fiance's breath away. hehe.. nasib baik tak semput mamat tu lafaz akad. i wonder if i'll ever be able to do that, y'know, take my sweetie's breath away. now pun he tengok i cam biasa je..

i start my part-time job as an RA today. well actually i started on monday but there weren't much to do yet since the questionaires & name lists were still incomplete. guess today i'll be organising my share of the Qs.. allocating them to my designated depts & lecturers.. bo-ring. ok, gotta get a move on. will fill u in later.

QuOtaBle quOtes..
been up & about the whole day.. my job as an RA turns out to be more tiring that i thought.. it also involves meeting loads of people. if i'm lucky, will kena marah free cos i'm taking their precious time to conduct the survey. oh well.. need the dough, so will just hafta keep workin' babe!

i was cleaning my room last night when i stumbled upon this year's calender. since 2003 is coming to an end, i was thinking of chucking that old calender away.. but i caught sight of these quotes on each month. some are boring, some are downright funny. here are some worth mentioning..

When the alarm clock rings, the best part of the day is over

The best tranquilizer is a good conscience

Pleasant words are like honeycombs, sweetness to the soul and health to the bones

Silence is golden only when you can’t think of a good answer

Patience is the art of concealing your impatience

You can’t stay mad at somebody who makes you laugh

The loneliest place in the world is the human heart when love is absent

Resentment will not change the past. it will not solve your problems and it will rob you of your joy

Laugh with people, not at them

i woke up this morning feeling slightly baffled. no.. not becos i've created a so-called online diary yesterday, but becos there are girls out there who are just plain weird.. what the heck am i talking about? well, let's just say my bestfriend was 'ambushed' by this other girl (the bitter penyu) for being empathic on bitter's feelings. good grief.. i sound like i'm mixing some ingredients that've gone bad. sorry lah, but anonymity remains in this blog. i'd wanna save my ass from being kicked by any of my friends if they knew i was pouring my heart out for the world to see. hehe.. as if.
ok, back to my morning story.. the way i see it, if a person is depressed or sad, the least that person should do to feel a lil better is to admit it lah.. ni dahle tak ngaku tengah sedih, marah2 pulak those who are trying to be nice towards them! hello? crazy or what? sheesh.. no wonderlah u're sad to begin with.

bloody hell
if there's a place i hate most, it's called the CPS. it should stand for 'centre of pigeon shitheads' rather than postgrad studies. i've been in this uni for almost 2 years & by right, i've completed my masters. but no, they've managed to stretch my dissertation binding process for so long that it looks as if I'M the one yang problematic. hello, excuse me?? i'm very much an efficient person ok? diorang tu yang incompetent & suka menyusahkan idup students. can u imagine them asking me back 'kalau students lain boleh face this problem, kenapa u tak boleh?' helloo?! there shouldn't be any problems to begin with!! it's ur god damn process yang full of crap & just plain stoooopid! aarrgghh!!! i'm so bloody annoyed!

aww.. so shweet!!
guess what? my bf's on his way to see me! talk about being efficient. i just emailed him my misery after dealing with the pigeon shitheads & i suppose he came down (or should i say 'up' cos he's from mlk) to make me feel better. isn't he the sweetest thing?? i'm just all smiles now. okie, gotta run & prep myself up. hehe..

i can't believe i've just created a blog. jeez, AS IF my life's so glamorous that'll entice any living soul to take a glance.. oh heck, who cares right? this blog is for ME. i happen to dig talking, yapping & doodling.. in fact, anything to do with nonsensical blabberings. guess it's only natural (and cool) to do so in cyberspace. to those who happen to come across this blog, i say 'hey' to u :)..

bf's birthday
it was my bf's birthday last friday.. but on that same night, a good friend of mine had her wedding at eastin. so that took care of his b'day dinner, hehe.. as for his pressie, i took him to see 'riverdance'
he was very surprised cos i didn't tell him where we were going till the very last minute, that is, till we sampai the lrt bukit jalil. it took me quite a while to coax him into wearing something, er, nice (he's the type who wears the same ol' pants & tee.. which i really dig but i doubt that'll be appropriate) that night. anyway, the show was spectacular! the dancers were beautifully coordinated & simply amazing. u could see the entire stadium gaping in awe at the dance choreographies- which was a combo of tap dancing, ballet & moon walk (yep, u read it).. i'm not a big fan of musicals or dance extravaganzas (whatever u call it) y'know, so they're damn good at gettin' my attention. my bf said it was one of the best presents he's ever gotten & that he enjoyed it v much. well good on ya, sweetie :)